Searching For The Still Quiet Voice

If I talk of 'noise' you would probably think, as I did, of the sounds that we hear around us - the exercise of the sense of hearing. But my realisation recently, during a time of prayer with my 'Blazin' Saddles' accountability group was that actually I am really not very good at creating the space and silence in my life to hear God's "still and quiet voice" (1 Kings 19 v 12.)

Have you ever tried to sit in complete silence, no sound at all, no music, just silence? But more than that, by silence I mean not doing anything... just being - submitting yourself to God with a prayer "Heavenly father, speak to me guide me!" and then just closing your eyes (to cut out the 'noise' of distraction around you) and waiting in silence. It's hard!... It's really, REALLY hard!!!

If you've been reading my blog you will know I have been seeking God's will for my life. I've been looking for his guidance in my experiences, in the radio I listen to (http://www.premier.org/), in the books that I read and in my relationships with others and the things they say, either as 'words of knowledge' or just simply learning from their stories and life experiences. I've been sitting surrounded by noise - and God HAS spoken to me during those times - but my realisation has been that actually I haven't been submitting completely to Him creating the space, the silence for Him to speak through his "still, quiet voice".

More than that, and as I write this I feel a mixture of shame, embarrassment and stupidity, I have realised just how little time I spend with his Word - The Bible! "Hmmm, the Word of God!" Maybe, just maybe there is a clue there for me in that name for the Bible.

I have returned to my efforts of (re-)reading Jack Deere's book 'Surprised By The Voice of God.' This morning as I lay in the bath (again!) reading I realised that Jesus on the Road to Emmaus (Luke 24 v 13ff) when he met with the disciples after his resurrection, did not simply reveal himself to them and say"Hey guys look it is me!" But rather as he walked with them, he taught them from the scriptures, from Moses through the prophets.

"Jesus was telling us, right from the very beginning of the Church's history, that the primary way he will be known is through the scriptures."

Jack Deere, Surprised by the Voice Of God (p111.)

I have been blessed. so far God has been gracious enough to speak to me through prayer, experience, friends, books, etc. But I think... No... I know that he is saying to me, "Read my word! Immerse yourself in it and I will teach you and guide you".

On a couple of occasions I have tried to just sit in silence and listen. It is SOOOOO hard! Within a minute or two I have found myself distracted, doing something or thinking about something else. My goal is to work on this but to do it with passages of scripture. Read the passage then sit in silence and listen to what God is saying to me.

Bread Of Heaven!

Over the last week I've been asking God, "Are you calling me into a 'tent making' ministry?" Tent making is what the Apostle Paul did to fund himself as he travelled on his missionary journeys. He made and sold tents to give him money for food and sustenance. Is God calling me into a 'tent making' ministry where I do training to earn money to enable me to carry out the ministry he is calling me into?

Yesterday, as I was on my way to deliver training to a Law Firm in London, I saw a friend at London, Victoria station. He was on the phone. As I passed him, I squeezed his arm and said "Hi!". He waved "Hi" back to me and I went on my way. As I continued I thought to myself, "I wonder if he's confused at the fact that I'm here in my business suit obviously on my way to do some training?" A few people I know have misunderstood that I am continuing as a Freelance Trainer, still doing much of the stuff I did before, just without the Business Owner / Directorial / Managerial responsibilities. As I wondered, I found myself imagining him catch up with me and asking, "I thought you'd jacked all this stuff in? How come you're back into it?"



"Bread of heaven!" came my imaginary response. "Hang on!" I thought, "Bread of heaven?! What sort of a response is that?!!!" I immediately found myself racking my brains to understand. "That's a strange response."




My thinking switched. "That is such a strange response! It just isn't the sort of response I would give. So, why did I say it in this imaginary conversation?" (Even later as I recounted this story to my wife she laughed at the answer I had given, "Bread of Heaven!" She agreed that it just isn't the sort of thing I would come up with.)

As I continued to walk through the Station I found myself thinking about the imaginary response. What does "bread of heaven" mean?... Bread of heaven?... Manna... Give us this day our Daily Bread?"

For those of you who know your Old testament stories, you will know that when the Children of Israel were wandering through the wilderness God provided bread for them every day. It was called Manna. They were given clear instructions as to what to do with it. They were told they they should only collect enough Manna for the coming day. Some of the people ignored this and gathered much more than they needed for a day. The next day when they arose, they found that the bread had begun to stink and was full of maggots! On the sixth day they were allowed to collect enough bread for 2 days so that they could rest on the Sabbath. On the 7th day the bread did not stink and was not full of maggots! God provided them with just enough food to sustain them on a day-by-day basis... even to cover the Holy Day.

"That's it!" I thought. "God is telling me that he will provide me with Manna. Daily bread that will keep me and my family. He will sustain us!... WOW!" It is interesting too, to note that when Jesus taught the Disciples to pray he told them to ask, "Give us this day our daily bread." I'm sure the disciples MUST have made the connection with the story of the Children of Israel in the wilderness when he said that.

Then the thought came to me, "Maybe it was God speaking to me through my imagination?" As soon as that thought came to me a warm rush rose up through my body. It wasn't a feeling I was familiar with. "Hmmm, maybe this WAS God's voice speaking to me... through me!" The New Testament tells us that "Young men will have visions and old men will dream dreams" (Acts of The Apostles 2 v 17), and of course Joseph and various other bible characters had dreams and these were interpreted, so clearly God does use the human imagination to speak.

I pondered a little longer, "IF it WAS God, what did He mean, 'Bread of Heaven!' Well, Manna was "bread of heaven! and there's that famous (Welsh) hymn which is all about The Children Of Israel (and our own) walk through the wilderness. Maybe God is saying to me "I will provide your daily bread. Training (which is what I was on my way to do) will be your bread of heaven.

There's a further, broader implication to this whole story that I had not immediately realised when it first occurred, and it relates to the Manna being collected on the 6th day. Reflecting on the story of the Children of Israel being told to collect enough manna on the 6th day for 2 days shows that God prioritised the Holy Day (holiday!) and as a result He made provision for it. Some very kind friends at our Church have offered us the use of their house in the Loire region of France during the summer holidays. Making the decision to go has not been straightforward because August is a quiet month work-wise and we obviously have bills to pay. There is a part of me that cries out saying you must remain available in case any work comes up during August. But I also have to say that there is a stronger part of me (call it foolish or reckless if you like - but I call it faith!) that believes wholeheartedly that God has called me into this situation and that He will provide for our needs.

Last night I bit the bullet, in faith, that God will provide for our needs and booked the Ferry from Dover to Calais.

From where I'm sitting it does look like God is calling me into a Tent Making ministry. From where I'm sitting God is saying "I will provide for all your needs." Watch this space! I'll keep you posted.

Half The Man I'm Meant To Be?

I never take baths! Always a shower. But a number of times recently I've elected to take the "slower route" to my ablutions - having a bath!

I've been caught up reading books recently - Again something I don't usually have much time to do. Business man, father, husband, leader in the church... you know how it goes! Everything is pulling on me demanding a piece of me and my time. That's why I haven't had time to take baths...until now! Now that I've created space in my life by resigning from the company I've found more time... although I have also discovered that, if I'm not careful, it is easy to let it leak away doing useless things!

The books I've been reading are...

"Surprised By The Voice Of God" by Jack Deere

"Good Morning Holy Spirit" by Benny Hinn

and "The Shack" by William P Young

I have read "Surprised" before, about 12 years ago. I decided to re-read it because I found it useful back then, and with everything that is going on in my life now I thought "Wouldn't do any harm to re-read it now." I feel I have a deeper knowledge and understanding in my faith now than when I read it the first time, so I thought that re-reading it might bring new things to light that I hadn't noticed or understood the last time around.

I was only a couple of chapters into "Surprised" when I began watching the "Florida Outpouring" on the God Channel (Sky TV channel 760 / 761 from about 9pm every night!) - Fascinating to watch what is going on there and clearly some people are genuinely being healed! Anyway, Todd Bentley the guy who is leading this revival referred to Benny Hinn's book - "Good Morning Holy Spirit!" and my wife Carrie said, "I've got that!" She went and got it out and gave it to me. I started reading it the next day, instead of 'Surprised' and found myself drawn into it.

A day or two later, I went away on business, staying in a hotel in Birmingham overnight and took 'Good morning' with me. I was gripped by it! I was intrigued and fascinated by the relationship Hinn has - a close intimate relationship - with the Holy Spirit of God. Unfortunately I left it in my room the day I checked out! So, I phoned and asked them to post it to me which they did... but I felt stranded without it - like I was in the midst of a question, but not sure what the question was.

A few days later, Sunday 15th June was Father's Day and my family bought me "The Shack" as part of my father's day pressie. I immediately started reading it. I'd heard that it was flying off the shelves in the bookshops.

I found myself even more gripped by this story! Interesting for me because I normally enjoy factual (biographies, etc) rather than fictional books. I finished it within 3 days fitting it in around any work, chores, family stuff, etc., whenever I could. I was amazed at how Young expressed the character of God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit - Trinity, three-in-one. I found it profound how he described the relationship between each of the trinity personalities of God, and also how they each related to the human character in the tale, called Mack. In fact, I also enjoyed Mack's struggles and perceptions as he interacted with each of the Godhead personalities. It is a wonderfully gentle, yet powerful book - which when you consider the plot, which is harrowing and uneasy to read at times, is quite a statement!

I think there were one or two points in 'The Shack' that I felt uncomfortable with 'theologically', but my overall impression was that I wanted others to consider the nature of God in the way I had when I had read that book. I think that it was quite a spiritual experience reading it!

Almost with disappointment I finished 'The Shack' and now I'm back with Benny, picking up on where I left off with "Good morning".

After my visit to the physio this a.m., I came home hot and sweaty, so elected to have another bath so that I could read some more. Under the sub-title "Following His Voice" (p72) Hinn points to Romans 8 v 5:

"Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds

set on what that nature desires; but those who live in

accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires."

I don't think I would have uderstood that verse in anywhere near the same way 6 months or a year ago like I do now! I can make my choices and decisions in life 'according to the sinful nature' - i.e. in my own strength and wisdom, OR... I can make those decisions through consultation and close relationship with God - Father, Son and Holy Spirit! I've done the latter on occasions. But what if I were to let God guide and direct me in ALL things? About what work to do, about what to do this evening, about what food to buy, about which route to drive from A to B? Hmmm... all sorts of possibilities begin to open up!

What I've realised is that I'm only being half (if that!) the man that God created me to be. He created me in his image - that is to say, to reflect Him and his nature. He has given me a spiritual side that he wants me to express and exercise that part of me. I have (I believe) lots of spiritual potential - plenty of room for growth - growing into the person that God had intended me to be.

A few lines later on the same page, Hinn refers to the "one great question" that he was carrying with him and asking God - "How can I really know you?" I found myself wondering, as I lay in the bath, "Is there any greater question that I can ask than that one?"

As I ask it, it leads me into a deeper knowledge and understanding of God. As I ask it, He reveals more of himself to me and as I come to know Him more, I will grow to fulfil the potential he has placed in me - I won't be able to help myself!

It's NOT all about me!

I have been sitting here for weeks... months in fact, saying I'm not sweating the big stuff, that having faith in the big step(s) has not been difficult... and I genuinely hold to that position. However, what was revealed to me yesterday as Jim prayed with me was about the difficulties of handling the 'small details'.

He was spot on! As he prayed he felt that it was important to exercise faith in the finer details and the 'small' too. This is an area where I have struggled. I've been wrestling with the details of knowing exactly what actions I should be taking in order to find God's plan. Additionally as Jim prayed he also spoke about my family saying that he felt that this was also an area where I should have faith. He pointed out that God has called me into this 'place' and as such He has also called my family into this place. Therefore I should not worry about them or the impact that this decision may be having on them but have faith that God is in control and that He will meet our needs.

The truth is that I have been worried about taking the necessary steps forward because of the possible implications for my family. "What if I am being called to 'live by faith'?" is the question I've been asking myself over the last week or so. 'Living by faith' means not commanding an income or salary in the traditional sense, but rather relying on God to provide for us through financial or other gifts. If this IS what he is calling me to then he needs to direct me in the 'ministry' that He is calling me to. If this IS what He is calling me to, the implications for our family regarding the things that we have almost taken for granted in the past - such as holidays, day trips, the kind of food we eat, where we eat, how we travel - is huge! It will mean a very different lifestyle and way of being as a family. so that's the stuff that I've been sweating about!

During the same service my wife also went for prayer. What was amazing was how God moved and spoke to her at the same time. When we got home from church, I asked her how her prayer time had gone. She came over and sat on my knee and told me that she also had been given 'a word' during that time of prayer about the journey we as a family were on. It was totally congruent with Jim's word to me. This is not just my journey. It is hers!... And it is our children's! And it is our church's journey.

God was clearly saying to us, "This is a journey that you are walking TOGETHER!" It's funny isn't it, how we take these vows to become united in marriage, but actually that is not enough! In order to be truly united, we then need to walk together, sharing the journey - or more accurately sharing our individual experiences of our journey together, working hard to understand one anothers' experience of the journey - in order to be united and of one accord. It is the journey itself that draws us closer to one another.

God has big things planned for us. He is at work. I feel it and know it in my heart - more importantly I'm experiencing it. I'm growing and maturing with each step along the way. One of the outcomes of this particular journey will be that we as a family will be closer and more united than before. That may be the sole purpose of this particular purpose, although I expect that there will be much more to learn along the way. Actually, in truth, that is not the purpose at all! The truth is that this journey we are on is one that leads to His name being glorified and the quickening of His Kingdom coming here on earth. That's the purpose! It's not about me, or my marriage or my work or my children or my church or my faith - It's all about Him.

My part in that journey is about becoming more Christlike. The more I become like Him the more His kingdom is revealed. The more his Kingdom is revealed the ore His will is done "on earth as it is in heaven".

As I reflect on it now, I can see that through His word to me about my family, what he is saying is that he wants me to draw them in more into this experience. Because it is NOT about me, or at least not about me alone, by drawing the family into the journey we share it and experience it together which in turn will draw us together. Furthermore, their experience of having the journey will enrich their lives. As an introvert, I think and work through life experiences INTERNALLY. So to share this with my family means externalising my thoughts in sharing them with the family. As I externalise and share the journey with my family they grow in knowledge and understanding of me thus enabling them to understand, support and love me more for the person that I really am.

But because it is NOT all about me, by sharing the journey with them I will grow in knowledge, understanding and love for each of them also.

Two Falls And A Submission!

My "hopeful expectation" has evolved. As the week progressed my feelings of restlessness did not leave me. In fact by last Friday (30th May) I had my 'lowest' day so far.

I hadn't fallen into despondency, but I had a feeling of discomfort in my gut - that's the best way I can describe it - it felt like discontent! Even now that does not fully describe what I was feeling... I've never felt like it before and I hope I don't feel it again! It wasn't fear - I know fear and have looked fear in the eye before. It wasn't impatience - again patience is a face I know well. I genuinely can't express exactly what it was I was feeling but it was negative, not positive.

So, I wrestled with it. But I found it hard to fight an enemy when I don't know my enemy's name! Then on Friday night I was at a dinner party. I was sat with a couple of friends from church. We were talking about a desire we all have to "do the stuff" that the early Christians did in the New Testament of the Bible. (Read The Acts Of The Apostles). The three of us, each in turn expressed a longing to see Christ glorified through miracles, such as healing, raising people from the dead, casting out evil spirits and the like. But most of all we want to see the world realise the truth of the Gospel of Christ. We began to discuss the recent "revival" in Florida and the miracles that seem to be happening there. I made the comment to my friends "If only we knew what it is that we need to learn, what it is we need to be or do in order for us to be ready for God to allow those things to happen through us!"

My good and wise friend John rebuked my comment saying "There is nothing we can do to MAKE this stuff happen. It will happen in God's timing and it will only happen when he commands it!" I thought about his comments. I think he is right! I learned an important lesson at that point as I reflected on John's wisdom.

Then on Sunday night before church I met with the rest of the prayer team to pray and prepare for the service ahead. I found myself longing to see God perform miracles in our church. I prayed a prayer of submission and then hoped that God would use me, or at least use one of us to begin performing miracles during the service. I realised later that whilst God had clearly moved and worked through our prayer with others, it wasn't the dramatic miracles I had longed for and anyway, I was still trying to be and do the right things in order to quicken the process. I hadn't learned from John's comment after all!

Tonight I was praying and preparing for a course I run at our church. It was as I was doing so and reflecting on the last few days that I realised I'd made the same mistake twice - striving to be better, to do the right things, in order that I (how arrogant of me!) could facilitate the situation where God would use me sooner! What a fool! Talk about "Not-so-Speedy-on-the-uptake!!!" That title for this blog was sooooooo prophetic!

So tonight I have come to a place (I think - I hope!) of absolute submission! I know I cannot make things happen. I can't be or do anything to speed God's revelation of His future plans for my life - He'll do that when he's ready! I can't be or do anything to create the right environment for God to begin to perform miracles of healing, etc through me - He will do it when He is ready and when it is (if it is!) part of His plan!

So, I submit to Christ! His is, after all, in control! He designed me. He made me for a purpose! I cannot dictate that purpose I can only submit to it, in the knowledge that by doing so He can truly use me to the fullness of my potential - The potential he placed in me!

Lord, I submit my whole self to you and your plans. I will not try to make things happen any more. I will not try to force your hand. I empty myself of all that I am. I empty myself of any spirit of independence, of striving and of pride that makes me want to dictate my future. In fact, I submit my future to you. It is no longer mine, but yours! Do with it - do with me what you will! I submit everything that I am and everything that i have to your will and service. Please fill me with your spirit so that it is no longer my life, but rather you living in me and working through me - according to your plans, your desires and your will. Glorify your name Lord!

Amen!

In praise of... Slow!

I can be quite the pessimist at times! I'm good at spotting what's wrong, what's going to go wrong or identifying failure or inadequacy! It was because of that that i chose the name i did for this blog. However, it seems strange that I chose the name "not-so-speedy" and the picture of the Tortoise for this blog! I chose them because I do not consider myself to be the fastest of movers / learners. I can be quite the reflector at times. Little did I know what was coming when I began this blog. It is turning into a journey that has a casual pace to it!

A friend, one of my best friends, recently described me as being someone who is very much the activist, driving on to do things and get things done, someone who is always on the go. Indeed another friend describes me as "spontaneous and impulsive" and my best man as "someone who, when he decides to do something, just goes for it and does it!"

Given that context the learning process I am now going through is... SLOW! Other words I thought of there were "painful", "laborious" and something that describes something that just doesn't seem to be moving at all! The reason why those words aren't right for this situation is that I'm actually not experiencing 'pain' or 'labour' and things are moving... a bit, slowly but surely.

This journey is much more about two other words... Faith and Patience. So far I don't think I'm doing too badly on the first one! I am happy with the decision(s) I have made (to follow God's will and call and leave my previous job) and I believe that God will open doors as time moves on. So far I have barely had any 'wobbles' about the uncertainty of the future - despite there being little in the way of developments and clarity about what exactly my future direction will be! So I think, at the risk of sounding prideful, I'm doing O.K. on the 'Faith' stakes.

Patience... hmmmm! I look at some people around me and I consider myself to be quite a patient person! I don't actually consider myself to be the driven person that (some of) my friends perceive! (I'm not saying they are wrong by the way! - Perception IS reality!) I'm not driven in the usual way that the world describes 'driven people'. I'm not driven to be a successful businessman. I'm not driven to earn lots of money - though if it comes then I will consider it a gift from God. I'd love to have lots of nice things and I do find myself coveting things like huge flat-screen TVs, nice holidays, etc. But I also easily recognise the emptiness that they possess! If those things come, then that's nice...but they're not the be all and end all for me. I'm struggling with IMpatience but not in the way I expected to!

Faith and Patience at first glance would seem inextricably linked! In fact I believe that they are. Doesn't faith feed our ability to be patient? The more faith I have the more patiently I can wait. So, it seems "logical" to expect that if I'm experiencing Faithfulness that I also experience Patience. But it's not quite like that!

What I am experiencing now is a different kind of impatience, despite my faith in God's greatness. I'm excited about the future and what God has planned for me. My impatience, is for seeing it come to fruition! My impatience is on based on hope not desperation! It's a funny place to be and not where I expected to be - not how I expected to feel 6 weeks after having given up my 'worldly' security to follow what I believe to be God's will for my life. I much more expected to be seeing things happen "soon" because if they don't then my financial security begins to come into question. But in fact, whilst I do have times when I think and wonder where the 'work' is going to come from, I don't find myself 'worrying' about it. I instead, find myself impatient to see what God has in store.

I guess the best description of what I'm experiencing is "Impatient expectation"... Or is it "hopeful expectation."
I can't wait to see how God is going to use me in the future. I have grow up with a belief that He's going to use me in some great way. I've waited too long to give Him control of my life. Now that I have given Him control I want it all now! But, in line with the title of this blog, I expect that, now that I've finally given Him control, He needs to do some work on me, in me before I am ready for Him to fulfil His purpose and plans!

Bring it on... when I am ready!

Faster Than The Speed Of Change!

What a difference a month makes. My last post (my first post!) written on 15th March '08 set the scene but I genuinely had no idea of what was to come next. Boy, if I had known...!

So there I was feeling challenged about the life I live, thinking of ways that I could become more Christ-like and truly serve God in the world, then on the 10th April 2008 my business partner and I had a serious conversation about the business and the future. I hadn't anticipated the conversation. I had for the last 5 or 6 months been feeling like God was calling me to devote more of my life to him. I had even discussed this with my business partner who is not a Christian. He and I had even discussed the fact that I would withdraw from the business in 2 to 5 years time. But when this conversation came up I found myself saying, "Why don't I leave now!" This wasn't as a result of a row or argument...on the contrary Paul (my business partner) and I had been working increasingly well together! For a while after I had suggested leaving, Paul and I sat and looked at each other. It wasn't what he had expected to hear. But then, it wasn't what I had expected to find myself suggesting! I have a wife and 2 young kids at home to support, plus a mortgage to pay, 2 cars to fund, etc, etc. What on earth was I saying?... And yet, it felt... right! We agreed that I would go away and pray about it with friends and discuss it with my wife (Carrie). But in my heart I KNEW what the outcome was going to be!

Carrie and I involved 6 other people, asking them to pray (separately/independently not together... not at the same time!) and asked them to ask God for a clear answer... for a decision as to what I should do. Only one or two of those praying for us knew the something of my situation and circumstances. Only one or two of them knew what they were praying about! The rest we asked them to simply ask God for an answer, "Yes" or "No". I wonder what the statistics are on this. What are the chances of those six people, plus Carrie and I (so that makes 8 people!) all praying for an answer and getting the same one! "The Man from Heaven, he says "Yes!'." But that's what happened! ALL of us felt the answer was "yes"...no doubts... no uncertainty.

By Saturday 12th April '08 (2 days later!) both Carrie and I KNEW for certain what God was saying. He had confirmed to us that He did want me to resign my position as co-owner/Director of the company unequivocally. Not only that but he had given words to our friends that corresponded with each other. Words like "The future plans have not yet been revealed." and people having 'pictures' of Doors... "some open and some needing to be pushed." And one significant picture of the Apostle Peter walked on water. Peter was fine whilst he kept his eyes on Jesus. But when he became distracted by the waves and began to waiver in his faith he began to sink. (Not surprising that Jesus called him "the Rock".)

Within a week I had resigned my position, agreed an exit strategy with my business partner, met and discussed the whole thing with our accountant and the deal had been done. Within a week I had gone from co-owner of a reasonably successful company, to being a one-man-band... except that I was not on my own. What is more amazing is that there was little fear, worry or concern about the future. (There still isn't!) We have been assured by God that if we keep our eyes firmly fixed on Him he will enable us to "walk on water".

A couple of weeks down the line and it feels good. I am continuing to work for my old company as a 'consultant' which brings in some income...but more will be needed if we are to maintain our financial stability. But little bits and pieces are already coming in!

Last weekend I was chatting with one of the other men from church whilst away on a men's weekend. He was talking about Joyce Meyer (www.joycemeyer.org.) and he quoted her as talking about the importance of 'holding on lightly to everything'. As I went away and reflected on her words I began to realise that in order to keep my eyes fixed on Jesus and not be filled with fear and distracted by the danger (waves) around me in my new adventure, I needed to hold on lightly to everything - my car, my house, my past! I've worked for 16-and-a-half years doing what I do. But maybe, just maybe Jesus wants me to walk in a new direction to step out in faith doing something completely new! It would be easy to hold on to my experience and the things that traditionally give 'security' (house, cars, etc) to shape my future. No doubt my past will be of some use... but something tells me that actually Jesus wants me to 'live by faith' trusting in Him for my direction rather than 'conforming to the ways of the world' and relying on my own knowledge and experience to see me through. I'm good at doing it my way! Now it's time to find out how good I am at doing it His way!

I look forward with eager anticipation to see what the future holds. I think some Theological training may be part of that future... but I'll wait for Jesus to confirm that with me before committing to taking that direction!

Whatever happens it is my hope and anticipation that God will glorify His name and that through me He can bring His Kingdom to reality here on earth.

Like Jesus said, "Now is the time! The Kingdom of God is here. Repent and believe the Good news." I pray that I will be able to declare the same message.

Watch this space!